Difficult Summer

It has been over 2 months since I undated my blog. I am sorry but I will try to do a lot better as we head into fall. I have had health problems, so I have been felling a bit low. It took all I had to keep up with my responsibilities both physically and emotionally. I have gotten the building in Round Grove down. Tomorrow I will be loading four 15' beams. Then on Friday I have two of my friend come and they will be loading up 26 pallets of block. I think that I will fell a weight has been lifted when that is done. I was doing so well at the start of the project in the Spring. I was putting in 6 hours a day sometimes 4 or 5 days a week. But June, July and August have been close to a total waste. I got hot and muggy, I was getting in 2 hours at a time and not getting the job done. It has dragged out all Summer long. I have felt guilty for not getting it done and have trouble keeping up at the genealogy society and home. The garden grew up in weeds, the lawn is bad too.

One big problem was the doctor put me on Abilify, then Lamictal, both brought my energy levels down. After getting down to about 240lbs, I gained over 20lbs on Abilify. So I stopped that. And Lamictal wasn't as bad but after stopping it I have improved a lot. Now I am on Wellbutrin along with the Prozac, and am doing much better. I hope to be able to loss 20 lbs before Winter. Just to let you know I don't get really depressed. I just feel physically wiped out and have to push myself to do almost everything. Life becomes drudgery, never enjoying anything.

The other problem has been the weather. The heat and humidity always gets me. I have to accept that was probably a third of my problem this Summer, maybe more. Life goes on and I have to make the best of it.

I was sadden and I guess heart broken because of what happened with JJ/Richard. I'm not on MSN and only read his blog. I didn't feel betrayed but it still hurt a bit. I am sorry that he felt that he need to lie to be accepted. But lying has consequences and he should have stopped it long before it got to where it did. I still would like to know what is happening with him, and still would like to be friends. I am the forgiving type and can't hold a grudge. But I don't let myself get used as a doormat ether.

I was afraid that I would loss this blog if I did post anything. I am going to update the progress on the RG project and get some pic's posted in the next few days. So if anyone is still out there take a moment and post a comment.

Who's Counting

There are some things that you shouldn't keep track of, like how much you spend on a hobby. Or in my case, the number of days I've been working on taking down this building in Round Grove.

Sometimes something takes as long as it takes, cost as much as it costs. You can't do anything to change how long it takes or what something costs. You just have to take things as they come. Focus on the task at hand. Maybe I need to reword this...  OK how about - Roll will the punches or go with the flow, and focus on the current problem that is in front of you. One thing at a time. That way I keep moving forward getting things done. I don't get as discouraged and I focus on what I am doing. If I'm at a meeting, I don't think about the work I'm not getting done. If I am working I don't think about an upcoming meeting or where I have to be later. But strange enough, I do think about the blogs I read and the people who write them. I think about all of you. OK so that is weird but it passes the time.

Time, I was getting to work about 6 plus hours at a time when I started this Round Grove Project. Now with the warmer weather and other things, that I don't want to go into at this time, you know keep it simple, I get about 2 to 3 hours of work before I am exhausted. It makes it a lot harder to get this building down. But I have mad some progress this last week.

BTW...How do you tell your doctor that the change in your meds has caused you to gain 20 lbs after losing 40, and make you want to sleep all of the time. It's like "Oh that's too bad, we should try something else." If I didn't wand to have a life so bad and be able to get some work done, I would tell him he is out of his frecken mind. If any of you know about a drug called Lamictal, I'd like to know more. Said the ginny pig.

Now only is the back wall down to the foundation, but the east and west walls are also. It took about 2 hours to do each one. You can see the ends of the floor joists, It is starting to look like a big deck.

Thursday, June 24th, took down North East corner.

Friday, June 25th, did the East wall.

Saturday, June 26th, did the West wall.

That would be 60 to 90 blocks per day. I know that doesn't sound like much but that is what I can do in about 2 hours each day. Tomorrow I should work on the front wall and clean up.

So you might wonder what does he do with the rest of the day. Well several hours were spent watching Fringe season 1, working on season 2 now. And then there is Dr. Who, I've missed a season of that. The Dr. Who series used to be better. And of course Merlin both seasons. Its ok but I like the old StarGate series better. Something to pass the time, so I don't get too bored. We've had a lot of rain and can't work outside in the yard or garden. I hope things will dry up a little now.

And I been catching up on my blog reading. JJ of course and T-mans, Gabe, Rowan, DJ among others.

Until next time...